I held his paw and slept by his facet for 14 days in hospital. But it surely turned out, all of the love on the planet wasn’t sufficient to avoid wasting him. Thus begins the ultimate publish on Lifetime of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You got here into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after nearly 14 years collectively, I held you in my arms protectively once more as I mentioned goodbye.
I used to be sobbing so onerous, I forgot all the things I wished to say to you in our last moments collectively.
So I began scripting this letter to you, to say all these issues.
I wished to reminisce about our great occasions – the hundreds of visits to the canine seashore, all of the great meals we sampled collectively, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our highway journeys.
I wished to thanks for spreading the enjoyment that’s you with readers all around the globe, for fortunately coming together with me to satisfy readers at occasions, guide signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, to not point out TV exhibits, picture shoots, and my gosh, we are able to’t neglect our stint on Play College!
However as I sit right here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I need to say to you.
What I need to say is thanks.
Thanks for giving me your complete coronary heart.
Thanks for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thanks for loving me simply as I’m, for all my flaws, for by no means caring what I weigh, what I put on, what I appear like.
Thanks for all the time being there, my one fixed by means of the great and dangerous occasions.
Thanks for making me smile, even on the toughest of days.
And thanks for making an attempt so onerous to stick with me so long as you may, preventing to heal till your final day. I’ll always remember how deep you needed to dig to search out the energy to your rehab stroll on our last morning collectively.
I do know that at some point, I will take a look at images of you once more with out sobbing. And I do know all this ache I’m feeling is as a result of I cherished you so fiercely and utterly, and I wouldn’t commerce it for a second I obtained to spend with you.
However proper now, 4 days after saying goodbye, it feels just like the heartbreak won’t ever heal, like I’ll by no means smile once more.
Relaxation in peace, my darling Dozer. I’ll always remember you, and I’ll by no means cease loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thanks SASH
To the vets and nurses on the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thanks for the extraordinary care, talent, and kindness you confirmed Dozer. Each second, from the medical experience to the light reassurance and cheering him on, meant extra to me than I can say. Understanding he was in such succesful, compassionate palms gave me consolation in the course of the hardest days. I’ll all the time be deeply grateful for all the things you probably did for my lovely boy. – Nagi x
